I think it's a little bit of a misconception that because someone is a health, wellness, or life coach, that we have it all together, all the time. Because we don't.
Like you, I am on my own journey and often find myself struggling to work past road blocks and that persistent broken record running through my mind.
Truth is, as brave as I can be, I am also a big old scaredy cat and find myself in situations where I need to 'practice what I preach' so to speak.
My husband and I signed up to do a triathlon on August 4th and thus we've been trying to get out on our road bikes as much as we can so that we are ready and then some for when the day arrives.
Cycling scares the you know what out of me and today as my husband and I road along, I tried desperately to understand why it scares me so much.
As our wheels turned and we road along, I drafted behind my husband gripping my handle bars until my knuckles turned white. If you are unfamiliar with the term drafting, it's a super cool word in the world of triathlons and variou other races and when you say it, it makes you feel rad ;)
In laymen terms, drafting is when you ride (or run or swim) super close, within a foot or two, of the person in front of you which, reduces the overall drag you experience and helps you save energy.
I hate it.
I know, I know, I shouldn't say the world hate but in this case, I really mean it. It scares me almost more then heights!
So as I was cruising along trying to keep up with my husband, who's name is David by the way, I started thinking about what I was really afraid of. Is it the fact that one tiny rock or a crack in the road could send up both tail spinning over our handlebars into the abyss of the ditch to our right or, is it the fact that in order to draft and draft well, I had to put a lot of trust in David, his body and his choices ?
Honestly, I think it's both.
I think, no I know that anything worth doing can be totally scary at times but in order to be a better cyclist, which I definitely want for myself, I need to let go of the need to have full control of all aspects of the ride. Truth is, no matter how tight you hold onto something, you can NEVER fully control it.
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And then there is the idea that the more you think about something the more it actually becomes your reality. Myy biggest fear is losing control and hurting myself but by thinking about it obsessively, I'm really not doing myself any favors. I'm setting myself up for a disaster actually.
By just allowing myself to trust that everything will go smoothly, I'm giving the universe the permission to keep me safe, which is what I really want, right?
The remainder of the ride I gave myself permission to trust in the experience. That no matter what happens, I'd be perfectly okay in the end.
I'm still not the best at drafting but I plan to approach each ride with a new found enthusiasm and appreciation for the lessons I've been given in learning to trust?
Is there an area in your life you need to learn to trust? Share below in the comments, I'd love to hear about your experience.